Me and Steph (my fellow Hoosier) at Hochblauen
Sausenburg Castle ruins (just about 5km from my apartment)
Check out that sky...Solveig, Rachel, Katie and Me atop Sausenburg
I need to start carrying my camera with me so I can show you guys more of life. It's definitely not all mountaintops and castleviews. The last week has been quite the emotional ride for me. Tonight I was able to articulate my greatest desire right now--to have a fully functioning heart. I feel like most of my heart is encased in a metal shell that has never really been broken into (and keeps people at an arm's distance) but significantly dented from some hammer blows trying to break in; and the nonhardened part is raw and missing large chunks- some given away, some ripped out. So, that's one of my main prayers right now, that God will do what it takes to get my heart to a place where I'm sensitive to Him and to people but still guarding my heart which is the wellspring of life. I've never found this balance, so I don't know what it looks like. I'm really hoping that to get a fully functioning heart that honors Him I don't have to go through total brokenness. But if that's what it takes to be genuine and effective then bring on the tissues. So, here's to a healthy heart!
2 comments:
I am so proud of you! I'm glad to see things are going so well. We love you!
WE LOVE YOU!!! (did you hear that....it was the babies saying it in unison:) that's what we're working on until you come home:) hah!)
Praying for you always! i love you
Jenny
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